I’ve been talking about starting a blog for years. Early to the idea, late to the adoption I suppose. There are a million reasons I could come up with as to why I haven’t done so yet, and all of them would be one large excuse after the other. While watching a movie at home recently, a quote from it struck me – profoundly. It was simple, to the point, and full of truth. Joss Whedon, you continue to make me love your creations (it was The Avengers, for the record). The quote, and I am paraphrasing due to contextual aspects, was this:
“You are going to fail… You lack conviction.”
And SLAM!! Right in the face. Like, damn man – could you hit me any harder?? Now, I don’t know if it’s a me thing or if it happens to everyone but I have always been prone to the harsh realization of epiphanies. The pow right in the kisser kind… you know what I mean. Thus the realization came upon me like an avalanche – if I am to do something, ANYTHING I must:
Do it with conviction – Believe in it – Stop when it’s finished
OK – so realization, check. Now what? It isn’t a lofty idea, certainly not something unattainable to achieve. But how do I do it? How to I pursue something not only with conviction but with a strong fidelity to myself at the same time? With life and all the crazy stuff that happens, how? It is not a duty, I am not obligated by any known or unforeseen force, yet there is something compelling me forward.
Conviction… passion. PASSION! The one thing I have found myself lacking, the one thing I have been looking for.
Passion is such a gift – one I find myself wishing I had more of instead of flights of fancy. But perhaps, perhaps to grow passion you need a bit of conviction… of dedication and habitual reverence of self.
The blogging frontier is so vast it presents itself as an ambiguous beast and maybe, just maybe I will discover the road to whatever passions lay beneath the surface with this blogging thing.