We all have moments in life that railroad us. That make us think. That make us pray. That make us grateful for what we have. A few months ago I was experiencing abdominal pain, was nauseas, and ultimately stopped eating for a period of time. My thoughts were everywhere… Did I have appendicitis? Was it… Continue reading The Good Bad News
I still don’t know what I was waiting for
And my time was running wild
A million dead-end streets
Every time I thought I’d got it made
It seemed the taste was not so sweet
So I turned myself to face me
But I’ve never caught a glimpse
Of how the others must see the faker
I’m much too fast to take that test
— “Changes” written and performed by David Bowie
It’s that time again, change is happening.
A hiatus in writing out my thoughts to focus living, led to a long period of change. All largely positive. I’ve worked hard on finding my center. On rediscovering my passions.
My focus for 2016 was to focus on ME.
I’ve spent a long time in the pattern of caring for others and not very well paying attention to myself… even when lovingly pushed to do so. A lifelong habit I fully credit to my mother, who is so selfless and giving of her love and time. (I couldn’t ask for a better role model in life than her.)
And so the changes begin here. A new format on a quiet blog in the whispers of the internet. Trying desperately to figure out how to not only have menu options but fill them. Definitely going to be a work in progress there, please be patient and don’t judge if it’s long coming! Content doesn’t seem to be sparse in my mind, but how to make the site work the way I want is a bit challenging. I know I need to spend some time on it. But at least I’m liking my new color scheme and set up. Makes the creativity a bit easier.
I’ll be taking this up again on a more regular basis. Hopefully my new journey will be of interest to some. If not, at least I can say I’m continuing the work that only I can do.
What does it mean to be inspiring? How do you go from being unsure of yourself to having others ask you to lead them? Where does the shift come from? It must be internal – some switch that is flipped, some instinct set free. Some beacon of chutzpah that is unfettered with towing the line… Continue reading Always Questioning
I want you to know that I am completely enamored with you. I love you more now than I did when you asked me to marry you and I know that my love for you will only grow. When you feel weak, I see resilience. When you feel sad, I see hope. I am blessed… Continue reading A Love Letter to My Husband
This past week has been nothing short of taxing… both physically, psychologically, emotionally — take your pick. I genuinely don’t remember crying so much in such a short span of time in a long while. But that’s ok. It’s ok to cry. It’s ok to let it all out, and it’s ok to show that… Continue reading Over the Horizon
I hope it is true that a man can die and yet not only live in others but give them life, and not only life, but that great consciousness of life. – Jack Kerouac Your funeral was today and the service was beautiful. You would be ecstatic to know how many people have been coming together with you… Continue reading Laid to Rest
True, I talk of dreams, Which are the children of an idle brain, Begot of nothing but vain fantasy. – Mercutio, Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet, Act 1 Scene 4 I find myself questioning and being introspective of late… the questioning hedging on a level of cynicism I haven’t had in a while yet blended… Continue reading The Dreams of Heart